Welcome to the second part.
I worked with a young boy and his mother in person. We focused primarily on the physical (subconscious) work. In the next part, I worked spiritually with his subtle self (himself at a subtle level) and his soul. This type of work doesn’t require the presence of another person, as we work subtly. This is what the connection looked like, in the diagram:
Me – Nikodem
S – subtle self
D – soul
Beginning
Me: Hi. Do you recognize me?
S: Yes. What are you doing?
Me: What are you doing now?
S: I’m researching something.
Me: Will you show me?
S: Such interesting things.
Me: It’s lit up. And what does it do?
S: I don’t know yet.
Me: Where did you get it?
S: Do you want one like that, too?
Me: No, why would I need it? Are you in touch with your soul?
S: Up there?
Me: Deeper down there, but it depends on your dominant sense.
S: Sometimes, but I’m more preoccupied with life (my body).
Me: How’s life going for you?
S: Good. It’s hard, but good.
Me: Should I talk to your soul?
S: Why?
Me: Because I promised when we met.
S: No, she won’t be satisfied.
Me: Why?
S: Because I don’t do what she wants.
Me: What does she want?
S: The same as mom.
Me: What does mom want?
S: Development, a fight against all this, development, liberation.
Me: What about you?
S: I’m fine as I am, I mind my own business, no one bothers me.
Me: And if you released these various things, would you be unable to mind your own business?
S: They wouldn’t leave me alone.
Me: So as long as „it is what it is,” you have peace?
S: Yes. As long as I don’t move, there’s peace.
Me: And development, liberation, is a struggle?
S: Yes.
Me: While we’re talking, stop trying to plug into my sacral chakra. Undo that now. [This action is also a sign that I’m talking to a much more conscious part, not as inert as the subconscious.]
S: OK.
Me: Would you mind checking your soul? So, if I’m talking to you now on the astral plane, I will start talking to your soul on „higher” levels?
S: I understand this after my last conversation with you.
Me: Then I’ll step back from your space for a moment.
Please pay attention to the quality of this conversation and its energetics. It will be very different from the conversation that follows. In this transcript below, you can replace the word „soul” with the word „higher self.” See how this transcript reads to you.
Me: I spoke with your incarnation.
D: And?
Me: He’s somehow afraid of you, isn’t he?
D: [the soul speaks in such a strange language, dialect]
Me: Speak normally, otherwise I won’t understand.
D: He’s having fun.
Me: Do you want him to work, develop?
D: Yes.
Me: And isn’t this a necessary period in his life, this fun? D: Fun is a waste of time. Me: Maybe it’s not a waste of time, but a necessary period in your existence. Isn’t it the case that you’re constantly on these missions, constantly fighting—and he (the incarnation) is showing you that he’s had enough. Why don’t you, as a soul, observe his behavior and analyze it? He shows you so much.
D: I didn’t think in this way. He’s supposed to do what’s planned. [The form: „I thought” is my shorthand, because souls rarely use gender-specific forms, lacking identification, although they have preferences/like to incarnate in a given gender.]
Me: And you know that because of this behavior, humanity is cut off from the souls’ consciousness, because souls often treat their personalities this way.
D: How? Me: Hard, like a tool for a mission, a drone, a robot. But humans have feelings.
D: I have feelings!
Me: And how many of these feelings do you have for your personality?
D: Hmm. [a moment of reflection] I don’t understand.
Me: During our work in person, when you arrived, the topic of the general from Vietnam, the loss of soldiers, the fight against the Americans came up. They (white people) captured you after losing the fight.
D: No one’s holding me now.
Me: Because, what happened?
D: Because I worked with you.
Me: But….
D: I have no feelings for myself? [Good self-analysis.]
Me: For your aspect. What annoys you about him? [I make the soul focus on her incarnation.]
D: Weakness, doing nothing, playing with nonsense. Illness and disorders were supposed to motivate, strength was supposed to awaken. [The soul throws out what didn’t work out in her incarnation assumptions.]
Me: And what?
D: Nothing [feeling angry, irritated]
Me: Okay, but what’s the lesson for you now?
D: I’m suspended, wasting time, nothing is happening down there. [Down there in the physical sense, the incarnation isn’t doing anything specific.]
Me: Look, because a session is working out. You said: „I have no feelings for myself” and „Weakness, doing nothing, playing with nonsense.” Do you see that?
D: I don’t allow fun?
Me: What does fun cause?
D: One is wasting time.
Me: You’re good and stubborn. Once again. Fun allows you to relax, unwind. This is a difficult topic, even for me.
D: But you understand.
Me: Understanding and applying are two different things. What happens when there’s relaxation, relief?
D: Readiness, some place for something.
Me: See. I started talking to your incarnation (subtle self) and he immediately reacted, „The soul won’t be satisfied.” Give acceptance to what your incarnation is doing, what he’s doing, because if the incarnation is part of you, it will eventually start doing something, occupying itself with something.
D: Hmm. That’s logical. [pause while the soul thinks] Give him permission, send him permission, acceptance?
Me: Exactly, and watch how the subtle bodies relax.
You have to teach the body about play and work, rest and action, balance. You’ll overwork the body.
D: It’s weakened. True.
Me: Exactly, and you’re still pushing, demanding. As a soul, find what you can do with this body, with this aspect of yourself, but don’t follow old patterns.
D: So even in this situation, I can draw something out, learn something? [The soul was surprised that in a situation where she didn’t see any point, there was a grain of wisdom.]
Me: Yes. What?
D: [thinks] Encourage through play, through interests. Interact astrally and mentally with the incarnation and „play” with it, ask questions, send something.
Me: Yes. What else?
D: But others will escape me. [It struck her again that it’s a loss, that she’s losing something through a new behavior.]
Me: Life, existence, has no start or finish line, no beginning and no end. Existence is one endless cycle.
D: Yes. I understand that.
Me: Then listen to your incarnation’s body, its rhythm. What do you feel and see? [I check the connection between them, how they feel each other.]
D: There’s a dichotomy.
Me: What will you do with it? [I immediately motivate the soul to take action, the rule is: leave nothing for later.]
D: I think I’ll combine these aspects, accept them.
Me: And what will change then?
D: I don’t know.
Me: Exactly, so you’re stepping out of your comfort zone, out of your mental fixations, out of competition: more, stronger, faster. Apply this now, and I’ll talk to your incarnation. OK?
D: Yes. Me: Did you watch my conversation?
S: Yes. The soul is large, she has many bundles. You read them quickly, I can’t.
Me: Almost two decades of practice. You can feel the soul within you. [I inspire the body to go within itself, into the heart, instead of „looking up”.]
S: Will there be no more shouting and commands? [Fear of the soul’s behavior emerges.]
Me: No.
S: Can I look around the world as I need and want? [The personality checks to see if it will lose its goals/plans when it cooperates with the soul. No synchronicity.]
Me: Yes.
S: Will she bother me? [Repeated from the level of fear and anxiety.]
Me: She has to cooperate. But you have to learn to differentiate, to feel yourself. [Here, the subtle self and the soul have to take two steps forward and overcome their fixations and fears.]
S: I can do that.
Me: Then do it. I’m observing.
[A few minutes later]
What changed?
S: More things to explore, more curiosity. [There were many things sent by the soul around the personality’s astral body.]
Me: And you, soul, how do you feel now?
D: He’s looking around, exploring. I’m afraid he’ll immerse himself in it, lose himself.
Me: Notice that you’re actually exploring this yourself, soul, just from another level, of your personality. You’re actually developing his senses, his mental and astral bodies, his abilities. You don’t have to have a world to do this, or physically incarnate.
D: I know this from talking to your monad. And how can I encourage him to become more involved in his physical body?
Me: What do you have planned for him? And why are you talking to me without engaging yourself on this level? [I responded to the phrase „encourage him,” because there’s a separation again, which is technically called a „separation between the selves.”]
D: I understand. Will you „hear” our inner conversation?
Me: Just split it into two beams. Same stream.
D: OK. [after a moment]
Me: Your incarnation is looking away.
D: Talk to him.
Me: What did the soul do to you now?
S: She made me focus on certain life events that are about to „happen,” and I’m supposed to experience them.
Me: And what?
S: It terrified me.
Me: So you habitually run away from it?
S: I don’t think I can run away from it, because it’s going to happen anyway, I’ll encounter it, I’ll experience it. [You can see wisdom here.]
Me: But will it really be that scary?
S: I don’t know.
Me: Feel it from your soul, this feeling, this need. Why do you need this experience, these events?
Consider the opportunity that now opens. For millennia, man has been unconsciously guided—not by the soul in the literal sense, but by the subconscious: ancestral patterns, family patterns, instincts. It was the soul, from the perspective of higher realms, that guided the process, and man, deprived of spiritual awareness, implemented these patterns, strengthening the ego and a sense of self-importance. Now, for the first time, we can consciously consult with our soul; one might even call it a negotiation with ourselves. Because the soul’s plans, assumptions, and ideas can be flawed and fail to function in the world because they are based on incorrect beliefs or a lack of experience.
S: I have a choice. My word is important. [The subtle self understood.]
Me: Exactly. And I’ve been demonstrating this for so many years. When a person begins to grasp and understand this distinction, this whole spiritual-Luciferian falsehood, this artificial division – everything disappears.
D: He has regained his power of agency.
Me: Exactly, soul, because you deprived him of it!
S: So I am the one who directs life. [Here you can feel such a sense of fulfillment, a sense of power, of influence.]
Me: Along with the soul and, unfortunately, the subconscious, which is such an autopilot.
S: Can the subconscious be eliminated? [The personality is already exploring, searching, and wondering.]
Me: The soul has shaped and densified your bodies – mental, astral, and etheric (especially the higher ones, which you may have experienced before) – therefore the subconscious vibrates not only in the cells, organs, body, and brain, but also in the atoms of the individual subtle bodies. It’s an Ahrimanic trap on the one hand, and the influence of the Luciferian AI/SI on the other.
S: What can I do about this?
Me: How your energies have changed. You have to let go of the old, what I do and show: combine classical therapy with spiritual therapy, work with the subconscious with subtle work. It took me—I emphasize—almost two decades to understand this. There are no shortcuts; shortcuts cause the greatest burdens. Sessions continue until something shifts in the brain and the bodies become more refined. There’s a click moment, but only after several sessions is the chance of permanently awakening the senses greater than after just one.
S: So if I find something, I withdraw it, I give up on it…
Me: And you insert new information for the sake of the subconscious, because there can’t be a vacuum.
OK. I’ll leave you like this. We’ll see how this works for you. The body will probably need some sleep for everything to fall into place. And how about you, soul?
D: Thank you. [You can feel their happiness; a new goal, a plan, no self at war with itself.]
Summary
These two short studies, with the conversations contained within, are the result of such a long period of research and events that it all seems downright impossible and grotesque. These short, concise conversations challenge so many methods, trends, dogmas, philosophies, and notions.
- The Subtle Self.
- The Soul.
In the Self-Unity Method (SUM) we certainly come to work with the monad, but the most important, fundamental gift for the spirituality of all humanity is learning this essential spiritual distinction.
I am happy and feel deeply satisfied to have been a pioneer in this process: breaking through established patterns, showing a new path, teaching others, and discovering subsequent layers of truth myself. But if I had to choose today whether to walk this path again, I would not accept any of its forms.
The price was too high. Long decades spent in intellectual and spiritual isolation, feeling deeply misunderstood, and then battling competition and constant questioning from those who, out of ignorance and delusion, had set themselves up as guardians of truth.
Nevertheless, looking back, I see that each difficult step was necessary for SUM to emerge in its pure, unadulterated form. What has been achieved opens doors that have remained closed for centuries. And this is a value that dwarfs even the most grievous personal costs.
Nikodem Marszałek
2022
