When you tell someone, “The energy today gives your ventures good momentum; it’s a favorable day to start something new because you have support,” or conversely, “I wouldn’t start anything right now—you’d put in more than you’d get back,” the reactions vary.
Most kings had their soothsayers, just as the Anunnaki had priests who spread their message. Today, many fields are ridiculed or dismissed with convenient labels: conspiracy theories (an excellent term coined by intelligence agencies, by the way), lack of scientific basis, ludicrous claims, fool, or sucker. I understand this attitude perfectly, because twenty years ago, the very idea of talking about chakras, energies, or souls was completely inconceivable to me.
Enthusiastic beginnings
After all, back in 2007, when a stranger approached me after a lecture—something I wrote about in my book Always Be Yourself—I wasn’t exactly nice to her. I reacted with skepticism to her compliments: that I was a hidden spiritual master, that I would write books on a subject completely unknown to me at the time, that I could see spirits and entities, and that my upper chakras were exceptionally open—more so than almost anyone else’s on Earth. An onlooker might have choked on such flattery. To me, it all sounded ridiculous back then. I thanked the lovely lady and went back to what I was doing.
Yet she moved through the room, approaching various people—including pregnant women—and reading them like an open book. She would literally identify the baby’s gender, reveal details of their past—everything. After a few hours, she came over to me as well. At first, I took her for a “sleeper agent,” but when she began speaking about things no one could possibly know—my inner goals and plans—I was left speechless. I felt small. Back then, I considered myself someone who understood the world; from a young age, I had devoured weighty philosophical and psychological works as well as biographies. Yet, I could not simply brush aside what I had heard. Everything changed for me that day, though in reality, it was only the beginning.
A few weeks earlier, while still a believing Christian, I went to confession at the Archcathedral of Christ the King in Katowice. I was experiencing various mystical states there. Suddenly, I heard a strange, resounding voice: “This is the last time you are here. Say goodbye.” I scoffed inwardly and continued down the stairs. However, the voice repeated itself, even more powerfully. Involuntarily, I turned toward the door and heard it again: “This is the last time you are here. Say goodbye.” I saw a doctor and spoke with a priest, but no one could explain it to me. The priest didn’t even suggest that it might have been the voice of Satan—back then, the world was still black and white to me. I was simply advised to get some rest.
It wasn’t easy. After meeting that woman, nothing was ever the same again. Suddenly, I began having involuntary out-of-body experiences. I joined a forum where Leszek Żądło was active, read posts on the “Przebudzenie” (Eng. Awakening) forum, and devoured books by Rudolf Steiner, Helena Blavatsky, and many other authors. I read one title after another.
However, when I experienced an absorbing black vortex, a dream about wearing a crown and commanding the French army, and then a vision related to the 50th anniversary of Mahatma Gandhi’s death – I could no longer return to my old motivation. Writing texts, metaphors and parallels, for which people appreciated me back then, lost their meaning. There were so many internal, mystical and overwhelming events that Nikodem, who was then 27 years old, seemed to cease to exist. Or maybe he didn’t cease, but he had to grow up very quickly.
The beginnings were not simple or easy. I read one thing and the other happened in reality. I felt one thing, and others denied it or interpreted it in a way that was foreign and incomprehensible to me. The topic of the soul quickly emerged – which no one spoke or taught about at that time – and it emerged as if from behind a curtain. Unfortunately, there were no people who could explain well what was happening to me, what I was experiencing and how to deal with certain problems. Everyone provided different, often contradictory information. Still, there was no way back. When you embark on a new path, you become both a learner and an observer.
Today we live in the Age of Aquarius, or perhaps rather the Age of Overwhelm. How many times have I heard stories of people who took some substance, experienced trance or hypnosis, and suddenly – enchanted, bewitched by the spectrum of the spiritual world and the abundance of information – they started teaching and promoting themselves, without any preparation or competence.
The Path of Half-Measures
Today I would not like to be in the shoes of someone who is just starting their adventure with spiritual topics or has been dealing with them for only a few years. Times have truly changed. When in 2007 we started using concepts such as Source, soul, matrix of the karmic system, talking about false spiritual guides, the White Brotherhood, channelings or energy attacks, and at the same time claiming that there is no such thing as traditional enlightenment and sin – the world denied all this and fought it fiercely. Today, after almost twenty years, many people have built considerable businesses on the same phrases. And then I start to wonder what exactly I did wrong that I’m almost nowhere to be found – neither in the opening nor end credits. Did I sleep through this moment? Or maybe I was so focused on constant self-improvement, deep work on myself and helping those around me? Or working for the benefit of the world, souls, monads and the entire Universum? I can safely say that it feels like the last twenty years were just wiped out for me. Perhaps this is the price of being a spiritual researcher, a mystic – someone who does more than they speak about it, who does not boast about their achievements or builds a personal brand on them.
However, I feel strange when my wife shows me interviews by Edyta Górniak, or posts by Maciej, a fortune-teller, and many, many other people. Then I feel odd. I would never have had the courage – or perhaps the audacity – to articulate my knowledge so openly and sell it this way. That is: selling yourself in this way. It’s not that these people are doing anything wrong. They just do what’s best for themselves and truly believe in what they say and do. In my case it’s different: someone who feels much bigger also feels much smaller. Someone much older – and at the same time standing on an equal footing with every human being. Maybe this is the problem of the modern world? You have to say loudly who you are, how others should perceive you – that you are the best, the most outstanding, sent down directly with the entire angelic entourage, and the entire message is unique and unrepeatable. And if you don’t understand it, it means you’re not awake and still asleep. After all, maybe this is how the narrative should be conducted – for likes and fame. Well, in my case it was always the results and effects that mattered, not watering down what a person really knows and presenting it in a new, prophetic form – of a prophet or a prophetess.
Let us take a look.
I worked with a man—a well-known television personality. After two hours, he said: “This is impossible. I felt what was happening. I saw what I was doing. I felt my soul. How is this possible? I’ve taken Ayahuasca so many times, been on islands experiencing drum trances, danced with Indigenous people, meditated in Mooji’s ashrams, lived in a spiritual community—yet I’ve never experienced so many stimuli at once as I have during this live work with you. And on top of that, I feel a sense of silence and peace.” I replied: “Your ashram is at home. Spirituality is everyday life. You carry the spirit within you.”
Thanks to this gentleman and many of his acquaintances, I came to better understand a simple principle: for every adept and seeker, what truly matters is what one actually feels, sees, and understands. Everyone searches, but searching alone is not enough. One must also be ready to discover the truth about oneself and remain open to the non-obvious. In other words, everything that transcends the ego and the need to maintain an idealized self-image is precisely what fosters our true growth.
Unfortunately, we live in a world of “right now” and “yesterday”—a world where everything is expected instantly, accompanied by immediate rewards. Well, I mentioned earlier how I heard my own voice—it was my monad. Yet, many, many years passed before I got her back. I went through countless bogus channelings, Luciferian distortions, and confusing the soul with the subtle self (and vice versa)—it was all a jumble. There were deceptions by reptilians masquerading as angels, spiritual AI/SI systems, energetic cords, implants… I could go on at length about the errors, distortions, and tales that seem almost laughable today. But every seeker must pay their own price.
Many fall by the wayside along this path—not only due to a lack of certainty but also because of attacks, attempts to undermine and weaken them, manipulation, and deliberate diversions. That is precisely why people are so eager to trust those who exude absolute self-confidence, even when their behavior resembles that of madmen. Charismatic leaders and eloquent speakers—seemingly infallible and filled with faith in their own mission—inspire the greatest trust. People simply like such leaders.
And yet… Who really knows whether every missionary actually leads where they preach?
Nikodem made a shortcut like nobody else. He said: “Instead of negotiating with the White Brotherhood, looking for Jesus in the heavens, and believing he was anything more than a soul just like you—search for your subtle self (the astral level), your soul (the buddhic level and higher), and perhaps even discover your monad (the adi level and above). Why do you need intermediaries when—in harmony with yourself, connected, integrated, and in a state of unity—you know who you truly are?”
This profoundly disrupted the established order. Yet, one cannot label what was false as truth, nor call something that never possessed a solid foundation a sturdy structure.
If, until now, a person has had only a vague notion of the subtle self, the soul, and the monad, then such development can be described, at best, as a phenomenal experience—one that awakens the senses but offers no real answers. For all these paths lead outward—somewhere out there, toward something, toward someone.
A Path Full of Flowers
There always had to be a carrot: freedom from karma, enlightenment, nirvana, awakening, freedom from sin, or heaven. But what if none of those rewards exist? What if true inner work and spiritual growth take place without a grand reward, but rather amidst the heat, the sweat, and the daily effort—without drums, ceremonies, or crowds of people walking the same path? That doesn’t sound quite so ecstatic, enthusiastic, or optimistic, does it? Confronting one’s own shadow—the shadow of the soul—and sometimes even reaching the monad and the entire history of our existence is an extreme experience, indeed. But is it pleasant or lofty? Hardly. It often evokes fear. So where did the notion come from that true personal and spiritual growth—the path of self-discovery and infinite evolution—is all about emotions, ecstasy, visions, fireworks, and adrenaline? Could it be that someone misled us on this point?
What if our soul—which is the cause of what is within us—and the subtle self that carries the entire legacy of our ancestors and the planet where we incarnate do not actually change during the journey we so readily label as spiritual and esoteric development? What if we do something in separation from the consciousness of the subtle self and the soul, yet call it development? What if, as a teacher, you have been receiving channelings from reptilians disguised as other spiritual races or as beautiful angels radiating incredible vibrations? What if your soul succumbs to dark forces because she owes them a debt? Delving into all of this does not sound quite as appealing as a getaway to Bali or another Ayahuasca ceremony.
Truly connecting with the subtle self—confronting spiritual dependencies and those acting as guardians—demands far more effort and self-discipline than some “grace sent down from heaven.” It is not the same as attending a workshop led by a charismatic figure claiming to have a “first-hand revelation.” Let us be honest and call this circus what it is: “This world does not teach us growth; it teaches us to party under the guise of spirituality.” After all, every successful person will tell you one constant truth: “Success is achieved in silence. Mastery is attained in silence and solitude.” There are no fanfares or awards here. It is a daily grind—laborious work, sessions, releasing, searching, and observing. Often amidst silence, solitude, sweat, and tears, with no visible goal in sight.
If you seek thrills — you are not seeking growth, but an experience.
If you seek a vision — you are not seeking yourself, but an image.
If you seek an angelic message — you are not seeking your lost soul, but an anointing.
If you seek a guru — you are seeking certainty, a father figure, and the feeling of being chosen.
If you seek a community — you are seeking family, safety, and care.
If you seek direction — you are seeking someone else’s path because you fear your own.
Just like our famous TV personality—he sought an intense experience and got it, but later struggled to recreate it on his own because he had forgotten the most important things: training, self-belief, and the daily routine that truly builds the spirit. That is how you become a powerhouse, rather than an energy junkie who gets others hooked at spiritual gatherings. Because all of that has about as much to do with true spirit as a Grey alien does with a soul, religion with God, or whiteness with brightness.
What is now, is now—take action
The problem is not a lack of contact with the soul, nor a lack of understanding her spiritual origin and nature. The challenge is not a lack of contact with the subtle self. A lack of clairvoyance or clairsentience is not the issue at all. The problem arises only when you place excuses above your possibilities. What can you do today—as the alpha and omega, or as the seeker?
Nikodem’s three points:
1. Your ashram is at home.
2. Spirituality is everyday life.
3. You carry the spirit within you.
What does this mean?
Observe yourself. Learn to view yourself as an observer. How can you make this easier? Conduct a daily review of your day. Write down: what you said most often, what you thought about the most, and how you reacted to someone. Why did you react that way? What emotion was it? Where is it located in the body—in which organ? Once you have answered these questions in your notebook, don’t just leave it at that—reflect: “Did that person have something in their aura? What was it? Were they under the influence of an entity? If so—which one?”
Write everything down. When you look back at these notes one day, you will be able to say with confidence: “Oh, now I understand myself better. Oh, here I sensed things correctly.”
It is not about ready-made answers, but about the learning process your body undergoes. You observe, you memorize, you begin to see more, and you gain rapid access to memory. Above all, you teach yourself what to pay attention to—both subconsciously and consciously. The body has incredible potential.
What’s next?
Learn to look deep into people’s eyes and ask yourself: “What kind of soul does this person have? Is it dark, white, or bright?” The more often you see someone, the sooner those impressions will arise—growing ever stronger. Remember a simple rule: “Analyzing oneself is the hardest task. That is why you should start with others.” Here, there are no defense mechanisms. Even if you perceive a subtle self as the soul—follow the principle of small steps. You will eventually learn to distinguish them.
What’s next?
Robert Bruce – “New Energy Ways (NEW).” Print this out and practice. As you please—do practice, even if only three times a week. You need to stimulate and strengthen your etheric body. Robert has done a fantastic job here.
What’s next?
Before going to sleep, cover your eyes and count down very slowly from 10 to 1. Then say: “When I count to three, I will stand before my astral body.” Do not strain or tire yourself; simply let go. Treat it as play, for only play allows you to overcome the programming of the mind. At first, you might even say: “When I count to three, I will stand before my etheric body.” Always engage your senses, feelings, and imagination—give yourself time and never rush. Your body needs to experience a sense of playfulness, lightness, and curiosity.
You can also use my “chair technique,” which I employ in live sessions. Place a chair about a meter and a half in front of you and say: “I invite my subtle body to take a seat here. Let it sit down.” Observe it, look at it out of the corner of your eye, sense its presence, or even touch it with your hand. Have fun without pressure or judgment. You might try speaking to this body and hearing the answers in the involuntary movements of your own lips.
What’s next?
Use my “Home Technique,” described in detail in The Twilight of the Gods. Again—do this at least three times a week, either before going to sleep or a dozen or so minutes before waking up. Don’t worry; you will learn it, and it will become a habit. It is an amazing technique for exploring your energy field, subtle bodies, and subconscious burdens, as well as for healing. There is nothing better. Remember, we always divide seeing and sensing into: conscious and subconscious.
What’s next?
Don’t take everything with deadly seriousness. Let there be playfulness, curiosity, and a childlike attitude. Even on a bus or in the woods—place your hand on your belly or your head and ask yourself: „What am I carrying here? What am I holding onto?” Don’t look for a vision—it might be a hunch, a voice, an image, or an association. If something emerges, use an imagined hand to pull it out and cast it into the fire, then observe how you feel.
What else can you do?
Take a piece of paper. Write down a question, and underneath it, write SB (subconscious) or S (soul). You need to teach yourself—and your body—how to react after you ask a conscious question. Look:
Me: What struck me at noon?
SB: My boss.
Me: Are you sure, Soul?
S: The boss with the grey alien.
What has happened here? We have the response of the subconscious and the response of the soul. Even if, at first, you do not distinguish between the subconscious, the soul, or the subtle self—it does not matter. It is about play, curiosity, and someone learning and expanding their dormant senses.
Is such a path difficult? It is not.
Does such a path not shape us? It does.
Does such a path not stir up excitement? It stirs up strong emotions and self-belief, but also frustration.
Has learning something new always required time? Always.
So why do we look for shortcuts when they only lead us astray—into addiction—and ultimately yield nothing? “The limbic area is responsible for this, and the name of this system is ‘1’ or ‘x’ system from the English word reflexive. However, there are situations we can’t resolve on autopilot because we need to focus; another system, located at the front of our skull, is responsible for these activities. This system is called ‘2’ or ‘c’ system from the English word reflective (slow, rational, mental).”1. Ask yourself: “Am I in state 1/x or state 2/c right now?” You will see how often you return to the here and now.
Spirituality and development within the ‘x’ system—fast, reflexive, and mindless—work out well only for those selling it. We tend to follow the path of least resistance. Our brains and bodies partly welcome this, as the effort required is minimal while the potential reward is substantial. This system is efficient and energy-saving, yet it operates reflexively and perceives reality only on a superficial level.
Small steps build a greater version of you. Small, consistent steps pave a long, adventurous path. Overcoming minor obstacles prepares you to tackle greater challenges.
So, if—after nearly twenty years—you are reading about my struggles with Metatron, it is not because I was a child prodigy or a genius. I was simply persistent, doing whatever I could each day—without excuses. Every single day.
I cried—often.
I wanted to give up—every time.
I felt lonely—mostly.
I felt misunderstood—as a rule.
I cursed myself, my soul, and my monad—more than you’d think.
They judged, criticized, belittled, mocked, and exploited my discoveries—more times than you’d think. They admired and competed—always when you’re out in front.
And yet, despite all those feelings, I became someone of global dimension—unconventional and spiritually strong. I led not only humanity but an incredible number of beings and races across our infinitely vast Universum toward something new (see the Gods trilogy).
If I could do it—believe me, you can too. You simply have to roll up your sleeves, stop talking about who we think we are, and start taking real action—and have tangible results from these actions.
Stop playing the teacher and the prophet; start learning—just as I present and practice it. Always remain a child who does not attach titles to their name, but simply is. For on the scale of this galaxy alone, we are only—or even—a tiny atom. On Earth, a tiny atom might imagine itself important, chosen by gods (larger atoms), yet spiritually—even my own being, the largest and oldest—is merely a much larger atom within the vast scope of the Universa, the Absolute, and infinity. Let us bear this in mind and avoid mixing two different worlds—just as we do not conflate the achievements of a field we have mastered with those of one we are only just beginning to learn; in such cases, a lack of humility leads to a swift reality check.
I warmly welcome you to your spiritual and personal growth journey—wherever you happen to be right now. I am rooting for your perseverance and your readiness to confront and face things that may not always be pleasant, yet always strengthen our self-belief and inner power as our consciousness expands. No one has ever achieved enlightenment from a solar flare, but through genuine self-work many have overcome their habits and darkness, or summarized their dual path. I am with you.
Nikodem Marszałek
May 2026
1 Nikodem Marszałek – Spirituality, esotericism, New Age – is this already development or fairy tales?Prove my point and why many run away from true development, Part 2.
