In 2007, when I published my first studies on the self-aware soul, all active spiritual teachers and old-school esotericists (and there were only a few of them at that time in Poland) viewed the subject with reserve. I’m also referring to the greatest Polish Gnostic and translator of Rudolf Steiner’s works, the late Jerzy Prokopiuk. Despite the fact that we published on the Cudowny Portal (eng. Miraculous Portal), where Leszek Żądło was very active, and the Przebudzenie (eng. Awakening) portal, the two largest websites dealing with spiritual topics at the time, few people were interested in the topic of the soul. Channelings, incarnation visions, astral travels, contact with guides, and past-life regression sessions were all that mattered. The topic of the soul was repressed, but it’s easy to see why. The contemporary Western spirituality draws heavily not from the culture and heritage of the Greeks, or its own roots, but from Hinduism, Buddhism, and guru-yoga, where the topic of the self-aware soul is simply absent. And to even mention the nature of souls is pure fantasy.
That happened because of another quite interesting factor: the sugariness of spirituality, or perhaps the candy-like quality of New Age? Because the difference between primordial spirituality, simple spirituality, and the influence of New Age culture is enormous. In 2008, I published a work called The Karmic System and Working Through Karma (currently available in The Spiritual Matrix), which arose the biggest surprise. We could hear: „What, we live in something like this?” „Karma is a figment of ancient beings?” „Karma is artificially regulated by a system of nets, pacts and agreements?” Yes, and it’s the main driving force of the „guilt-punishment” system, because it’s the soul’s sense of guilt and her naivety that brought us here to Earth. Not us, the personalities, but our souls were led to believe that thanks to this system, they would be stronger, wiser, or enlightened. And who was the ambassador of karma as the eternal principle of the cosmos, the balancing act of the universe? One could say that Buddha was the first, but we know that Indian spirituality is much older than Buddhism. The current understanding of karma actually began with the Theosophist Annie Besant, who, following her predecessor, Helena Blavatsky, published treatises on karma that were later published as books. A doctrine of karma within Buddhism itself did not help, either. A contribution was also made by another former Theosophist, Alice Bailey, whom we will talk about later.
Despite a rejection and lack of understanding, there was some success in 2007-2008. After analyzing several channelings of Archangels Michael and Metatron, published online worldwide at the time, the entire regression group led by Leszek Żądło, along with us and our own studies, began to release the influence of these beings on the Cudowny Portal. Behind the colorful words, sugarcoating, and hope, each channeling involved trashy nets, curses, and subtle (astral) implantations. As one, we all began to free ourselves from the influence of channeling and the influence of the Great White Brotherhood, which joined the crusade against us so as not to release the nets, resources, influences and astral planes. It was one of the greatest successes in Poland, in a relatively young, nascent spiritual and esoteric environment. Despite differing beliefs and paths, everyone involved contributed by stepping outside their comfort zone. It was a real brainstorming session, which at the time was, after all, an objection against seemingly divine beings. As it later turned out, beings who literally held spiritual development and spiritual paths in their thrall.
The most challenging topic I’ve explored in my writings has been enlightenment, presented not as a permanent state but as an infinite evolution of consciousness. All forms of enlightenment (mostly mental techniques, primarily Luciferian ones) are based on the dissolution of the ego, but they ignore the soul/higher self and monad, and the fact that we as beings require experience from various dimensions, densities, and universes to individuate ourselves. What good is it if an „enlightened person” on this planet becomes enlightened if their bodies are not individualized at higher density levels (e.g., anupadaka, adi, or higher), or their soul/higher self has entirely different goals and plans? Such a being—for that is the evolutionary and involutionary goal—will be given the impulse to live again, though certainly in a different world and energy system.
My goal at the beginning of my “spiritual path” was to achieve enlightenment. Most people in Buddhist or regression communities had similar goals. Unfortunately, the contact and work with the subtle self, soul/higher self, contradicted any Enlightenment philosophy. It was painful, but somehow internally liberating, because it changed the centrifugal force of development. Spirituality not as an escape from reality, with the overarching goal of dismantling the ego, but a spirituality that allows the ego to realize itself in a healthy way, through the conscious intention of living in harmony, that is, accepting body, soul, and mind. At that time, in my twenty-eight-year-old body—being an astrological Taurus and Choleric, didn’t make things any easier—the „you have to fight,” „break through things,” and „be an icebreaker” attitude was against all the hermetic attitudes emanating from the spiritual and esoteric environment in Poland. That attitude caused friction, constant confrontation, but also considerable surprise.
When we established our own discussion forum, we were able to focus on further research, explorations, and unleashing the histories stored within us and our souls. A topic much more difficult than simply learning to work with the soul opened up. The works God and the Angelic Choirs, Princes of Hells, and The Underground Bodies opened doors that initially overwhelmed us. If the topic of Metatron and Archangel Michael required a month of spiritual releases in a big group, the first exploration of the structures of The White One and his angelic thrones, the exploration of hells that initially seemed like a Christian fairy tale—and I’m not even talking about Focus 24/25/26, which are the territories of beliefs described by Robert Monroe—overwhelmed us, or actually swept us away. Please understand that the research wasn’t conducted in a single session, or a single insight (of one lost or deranged person). It was conducted across the entire group over weeks, months, and years. Both topics—white and black structures, connections, and energetics—uncovered a whole set of what I called white and dark patterns, that is burdens stemming from the social and familial structure as well as the history and burdens of our souls.
Leszek Żądło1 used the term „fallen angel,” but there’s nothing surprising about the „falling” when we look at the evolutionary process of a living being. Each being simply experiences lower and lower densities, because that’s how they gain experience at a given subtle level. The environment again responded to my work, but only initially, because we no longer paid attention to the opinions of others. We simply responded: „Using your own method, go within yourself, search for the history of the fights between the white ones and the dark ones, your connections with The White One, or the Princes of Hells. And if there’s too much of it, you probably lived on Orion or the Pleiades, where fighting was of daily occurrence. And who fought there? The white forces against the dark ones.” In other words, there was a request to explore the topic through one’s own experiences, even if someone denied or ridiculed it, it was their defense mechanism. When someone delved into their history of service to the white or dark ones, such a being changed, grew rapidly, and regained the resources they had lost there. I discuss this history and liberations in my book Beyond Duality because when we develop a system of naming, of looking at things without the dual (black and white) perspective, it’s easier for us to recognize the influences of schools, white paths and, unfortunately, dark ones in various currents, but also the Luciferian influence that cleverly maneuvered between the camps.
Even if fields such as esotericism, spirituality, New Age, various mystical and initiating schools avoid the topic of white and dark, as well as white and black patterns. It doesn’t matter because at some point the child has to admit to themselves that their parent was abusive. The mechanism of idealization allowed for growth, but how many times can we repeat past life regression sessions, heal incarnations, and focus on our disorders or problems? If the scale of what our souls carry is the main cause of who we are today, and therefore transcends our family lineage? You can blindfold yourself, but that won’t completely erase reality, and the issue won’t suddenly disappear.
Many, many years later…
Today, many people write about the soul, converse with souls, subtle selves, essences, and the higher self. No one laughs at this, no one questions it; people with such abilities are even sought out. Today, karma is written about without mercy—as the product of ancient, fallen beings, the Anunnaki, the Archons. The scams used by various spiritual guides, who persuade people to incarnate within this pathological system (see Michael Newton and his books), are spoken of loudly and clearly; people understand that these are cunning reptiles posing as angels, the plague of this world. No one has an issue with this, yet almost two decades ago we were scolded and ridiculed for such information! When, in place of God, we began writing about the Source – let me remind you, it was 2007 – we were treated as heretics, Luciferians. That was nothing – an icebreaker, a being with a mission to introduce new things, to show, to teach, to distribute – that’s what Nikodem was like. My path resembled the road to Golgotha, but in the name of what? It was the result of white burdens, personal and spiritual ones, the kind that you, living on this planet, probably carry as well.
Another topic of darkness, the underground bodies, hell, darkness, and burdens that we may have was another indigestible topic for many, arousing distaste, disgust and ridicule. Heaven and Hell are such cool fairy tales for children, after all. Did Hitler and Stalin already come with pathology, a blackness in their souls, or did life simply break them and create psychopaths out of them? Ahriman, Satan or Lucifer, where did they get their ideas for manifestation? Which came first: the soul or the personality? We all come from love and unity, but our experience has taken on various shapes and forms, intertwined with various energies, energetics, and structures. This created dependencies, created burdens, built friendships and antipathies. These are specific stories to work on yourself with, as we’re talking about higher vibrations, higher subtle bodies, or even “lower and higher karma”, but what exactly do we do to release them and emanate our primordial energies? The entire wave of New Age and its prophets has stripped humanity of its power, and unfortunately, the foundation was theosophists, who, on the one hand, presented a great deal of technical knowledge, but at the same time, provided a foundation for the division, selection, and exaltation of non-incarnate beings, including the Great White Brotherhood. And for this, Jiddu Krishnamurti took the most flak.
The entire Luciferian scam didn’t begin with theosophists, but it was the theosophist Alice Bailey, in particular, who, at odds with Annie Besant who went her own way, laid the foundations for the entire new era movement. What came next? The New Age movement completely erased the existence of the devil, Satan, and hell. This despite the fact that long before, Rudolf Steiner had equated Ahriman, Christ, and Lucifer, creating a single line, a bridge. Yet these are different souls, beings, forces, schools of influence and impact on younger beings. Ahriman and Metatron concreted, grounded, trapped in karma, treated beings like breeding cattle. As the late Jerzy Prokopiuk wrote, quote
‘Neither Lucifer nor Ahriman, however, propose any resurrection. Ahriman, of course, by definition, because the brute simply has no business being resurrected, no need to push for resurrection at all. In the variant suggested by Lucifer, it could indeed be that the human being dissolves in him – so it would be, in a sense, a „dinner”2 situation carried to its conclusion.’ unquote
We also have the influence of Belial, Satan, and even The White One, who is still treated as God in all religions. His thrones themselves reached all the way up to the eleventh density, meaning they were based on the structure of his monad and soul. It was The White One and his forces who fought Belial, Lucifer, Leviathan, and Ahriman, only to later simply sign agreements dividing the worlds among themselves. Everyone was in their assigned place, and the same thing carried on from world to world. Whether a person chooses religion, with its sin and salvation, or Eastern philosophical systems with karma and enlightenment, is irrelevant. Everything belongs to and originates from the same beings; these are still the same gods (Descending Beings), and souls have a similar energy cycle in the same samsaric „sequence.” At the top of the pyramid are the elite—we know their names—and at the bottom are many different, busy beings, such as grays, reptilians, draconians, lesser demons, and system bots that mechanically and automatically regulate many incarnation and reincarnation processes.
If we already live in this samsara, this sandbox, these low-energy worlds—because we exist multidimensionally, after all—we can regain access to incarnations, worlds where our energies were squandered, lost, or literally „sold”. It’s worth beginning to return to our original vibration, free from the influence of the dual world, black and white, and various spiritual paths and methods that constantly influence our energetics and attitudes. However, the topic of working with the soul and working on ourselves requires admitting that we as a personalities are us, but not everything in our lives is the result of our decisions, will, the influence of the subconscious, because there is this key factor in human development and evolution, which is the influence of the soul and her “higher karma”. And just as we possess a range of burdens, personal and ancestral patterns, our souls also possess their own sets of programs, needs, and dependencies. We are subject to physical, chemical, and biological laws, while they are affected by spiritual and energetic laws. What we do in a few months, weeks, or days, the soul can accomplish very quickly, but she has to want it, and this „wanting” can vary.
Global effects?
- Enlightenment and the enlightened state were substitutes for the development of higher bodies and the consciousness of the soul and monad. Instead of working on the primary cause, man worked on something physical, ancestral, or incarnational, without reaching the main essence. The result? An endless path.
- The curtain in the topic of the subtle selves, the countless species of souls, fell. The curiosity about who one is and what one is doing here, prevailed.
- The myth about the sacredness of the Karma System, about repaying anything, about connecting executioners with victims, and about the divine laws of cause and effect turned out to be a logical computer algorithm without an ounce of love or, in fact, meaning, because souls only generated more pain, suffering and harm, meaning they got stuck in the system instead of freeing themselves from anything.
- The topic of God in the form of the White One’s monad and his suffering, dependent love, and slogans: „God is love.” In its place is the fact that we all originate from a level of all-pervading love, that is, the Source, and each of us has a monad and even a spark/particle within the Source itself. All of this completely changed the perception of our own being – but without working with the soul, and later with the monad, such discoveries are impossible, because the monk, the enlightened one, the White Brotherhood, and the channelings of Metatron or Michael created a veil, confused, and attacked new ideas and values. Much like the actions of the dracos and Luciferian reptiles themselves. These were dark times for humanity.
The current challenges are no longer about spiritual guides or archons, but rather distinguishing the subtle self from the soul, confronting one’s own history. One awakens to a stage of spiritual work that touches the subtle self and the soul. Building one’s emanation not through prayers, appeals, or decrees, but through awareness of what one has done, who one was, and how one and oneself react at the level of higher bodies/densities. Because what good is it when a person speaks beautifully, but their soul sits all black, drawing out energies? This is already a disorder, not a mental one, but one that affects all of our selves.
The challenge no longer concerns guides, the forces that hold souls in some unknown prison, but rather the awareness of one’s own inner power. Isn’t it beautiful that every being can and does create, be responsible for themselves, instead of surrendering their will to this psychopathic system that supposedly raises them „with a heavy hand,” or to some unspecified guide? Isn’t it beautiful that souls of all species, vibrations, and diverse pasts can, through an act of will and determination, release all their dependencies, even the most difficult, dark, hellish ones?
One can resolve their karma with the white hierarchies, with the former Princes of Hells, release all records from the Akashic Records or the Hell’s Libraries and no one will harm them. They’ll threaten, but the door has been broken down and the path has been shown. Even Aleister Crowley, who made no secret of his dwelling in hell, spoke of development through confrontation. Perhaps this dark and white curtain, which is slowly descending from the planet and humanity, this looking down underneath our feet, into the underground bodies, will become a beacon of light for beings who, until now, have been stifled, suffocated, afraid to change anything because someone older would immediately appear and deliver punishment, judgment, casting out, and evaluation. Those times are over. The awareness of free will, of love that doesn’t judge, divide, or punish, and of the fact that every being comes from love and unity, not only gives hope but, above all, inspires, showing that not everything that seems difficult, insurmountable, or unacceptable is as it seems. However, all it takes is a step into the unknown, because, as Les Brown said, „Leap, and the net will appear.”
Feel free to read the second part of this study, titled: Spirituality, esotericism, New Age – is this already development or fairy tales? Confirmation Bias and the Minimal Effort Trap, Part 2.
Nikodem Marszałek
February 2022 / 2024
1Leszek Żądło – Upadłe Anioły (eng. Fallen Angels). Available in the Polish language at https://www.ezosfera.pl/leszek/artykul/17
2 https://www.gnosis.art.pl/numery/gn07_prokopiuk_steinrowska_dem.HTM (the site is safe, you can add it to the Rules).
