The most interesting and telling thing happened after publishing the article Gods on Credit: Satan’s Revenge on Lucifer and a Lesson in Shared Responsibility for Humanity. Many people read it, but even more – subtle selves and souls.
A woman’s subtle self appeared in space, believing herself to be Lilith and Ninhursag, saying: „I am the Mother Earth.” She used magic, crystals, and various techniques. Her subtle self was dressed in multicolored robes, and employed sexual magic and other ritual techniques. She also attacked with ice techniques.
When I called out to her entire „coven” and asked if she had assembled the „armies” described in the article I cited (link in the first paragraph), she denied it. I then turned to her subtle self: „Ask your soul who you really were. I don’t cure delusions of grandeur and other delusions.”
This person’s subtle self began to stamp their foot and threaten even more. So I called out to her soul and announced: „She attacked me, so the price for this is her life.” The soul simply waved her hand, said to her subtle self and all the beings gathered around her: „Idiots” – and flew away. A few moments later, absolutely nothing remained.
Let’s dwell on all this for a moment longer.
The event described is an archetypal example of spiritual inflation and a total departure from truth and true spirituality. A woman, identifying with powerful archetypes (Lilith, Ninhursag), created such a dense illusion of her own grandeur that she completely cut herself off from the voice of her own soul and reality. I understand this type of disorders through the lens of the clashed described in the „Gods” trilogy. However, appropriating names and histories that do not belong to us must stem from a profoundly low self-esteem. It’s a desperate attempt to build an identity on the foundation of someone else’s power, when faith in one’s own has vanished.
- The mechanism of illusion. This person’s subtle self functioned like a whiny, angry child (stamping their feet, threatening others), a classic manifestation of spiritual immaturity and deep frustration stemming from living at odds with their own essence. Magic, rituals, and beautiful robes served as a „wand” to conjure reality to fit their narrative and ego.
- The soul’s reaction was crushing and final. The word „idiots” and departure were not an expression of anger, but a decisive, cool assessment of the situation. The soul saw the absurdity and tragicomic stubbornness of her earthly incarnation. Her decision to leave this form of existence meant that person had exhausted her trust and potential for growth in this incarnation. There was nothing left to save, because there was no will for truth.
- „Nothing left” is the physical manifestation of spiritual bankruptcy. When the soul departs, she takes away vitality and essence. This wasn’t an external punishment, but the inevitable consequence of living in complete opposition to one’s own nature. It is the soul that decides to continue the project called life; when she withdraws her full support, the project collapses.
- Earth is like a polarizer, for it establishes „new boundary scales.” In heightened vibrations, illusions shatter quickly and loudly, and the consequences of spiritual choices become more tangible and immediate. What once could have remained hidden for years now unfolds at an accelerated pace. It is as if the planet and the cosmos’ patience for human „experiments” with the ego had run out. After all, this is the astrological cycle we find ourselves in today.
Delusions of grandeur and magic – a deadly dangerous relationship
Delusions of grandeur combined with magic is a deadly combination. This is why magical and esoteric circles are particularly susceptible to this type of illusion. Magic, at its core, is a tool for influencing reality. For someone with low self-esteem and an unintegrated ego, any success in this field becomes a drug—a confirmation of exceptionalism. A successful ritual, a fulfilled wish, or a slain enemy evokes recognition within the group, which feeds the hungry, fragile ego. In this way, the person ceases to distinguish the true power flowing from the soul and monad from their own personal greatness.
Magic has never been a neutral tool. In every world, it is closely connected to karma, because it always produces consequences. It then becomes a wand for building a sandcastle on the edge of a cliff. It is no coincidence that many people take the names of archetypes like Lilith or Ninhursag, or even Lucifer or Satan. This is a magical act in itself—an attempt to summon and appropriate their energies and authority to fuel their own fragile mental construct. The problem is that true power recognizes its tools. When someone plays god or demon—the form does not matter—sooner or later the true Creator of energy appears to settle this debt. This last sentence is especially important!
Ego-based magic is dangerous not because of the risk of a ritual error. It’s dangerous because the entire spiritual structure and identity of such a person is built on a loan that no one has any intention of repaying. When this loan is finally called in, there’s nothing left to salvage.
It’s also worth looking at my own spiritual work—especially that presented in the free sessions and the „Gods” trilogy. Metatron, Lilith, Lucifer, Satan, their greatest deputies (Left and Right Hands), the generals—have any of them ever used any form of magic? When you understand the principles of flow, techniques based on pure thought and will, you don’t use magic, because it always backfires. Magic is a quantum bond, and it often requires collections and reservoirs, emotions, rhythm, repetition, and the so-called „entrance” on the other side. Magic is too slow and too burdened with karma. That’s why no older soul uses it in any form. It’s a game for the crowd, meant to feel like they „can do something.” If so, the real game hasn’t even begun yet. Hence, a single movement of my will and the action of that person’s soul was enough to reduce the entire collection of a dozen or so beings to literally nothing.
Conclusion
This story reminds us that no technique, no magic, no role, no tale about ourselves can replace the truth of our own soul. Attempts to appropriate someone else’s glory, power, or history—even archetypal ones—always stem from a deep misunderstanding and rejection of our own, unique part.
This event complements the questions from the previous article. This woman—along with her subtle self and the beings she gathered around her—bore the ultimate responsibility for choosing to live in illusion. Identifying with a role that is not ours burdens the entire web of consciousness, as I demonstrated in my study „Take Jesus down from the cross and finally embrace your Shadow” and the one linked in the first paragraph.
Our subtle self needs coordination with our consciousness, because too often its behavior resembles a „moving shadow” that does things we, as humans, cannot even dream of. The soul, on the other hand, is the true authority. Although not always and not everywhere (because she too can succumb to patterns, vows, or delusions), from her perspective, the behavior of the incarnation and the subtle self most often resembles a parent-child game. The soul also does not accept the false pressure of the personality. There must be a „reason for being.” Otherwise, what does she have to defend? Illusions?
True power needs no costume.
True greatness needs no validation.
The true „Mother Earth” simply is—and does not need to speak of it.
The true Mother allows her creation to live—instead of commanding it to bow down, to receive energy, and to exert power.
And above all: power itself does not need to amplify itself, to take from anyone, or to give to anyone. It simply is.
This short study aims to encourage us to abandon the burden of playing a „god on credit.” It reminds us that what is true, our own, and eternal is always within us—even if we don’t have access to it at the moment, and our life situation, our thoughts, emotions, or our entire lives tell us something completely different.
Situations like this are absurd in their very nature. Why would someone, armed only with a wand and locked in a castle built on sand with borrowed energy and power, attack a bear—a being that nurtures and protects, yet simultaneously represents strength?
They attack because, immersed in their own illusion, they no longer perceive the truth. In their created world, everything has always been subject to their power and projections—or so they thought. Such a being sees only a threat to their fragile sandcastle. They cannot understand that the Bear—this primal force—does not attack first. On the contrary: he nurtures, waters, and protects. He is both a protector and a force that cannot be fully comprehended or controlled. He is a powerful, primordial guardian who, having dominated everything else, has — precisely because of that — come to understand and accept both life and that which is inherently evil. Armed with their techniques, magic, and rituals of their many orders, the attacker strikes because they feel a deep emptiness within themselves. Their ego abhors the sight of true power, which needs no disguise or proof. In the attacker’s world, everything comes down to a struggle for dominance, so what is authentic and peaceful automatically becomes the enemy. They attack not from a position of strength, but from the terror that their illusion will crumble at any moment.
Nikodem Marszałek
April 2026
